Living the Dream |
In one way it is hard to believe that it has been only a little over 2-weeks since I finished the AT -- in another, it feels like a lifetime has past. I knew that assimilating back into "real" life would be difficult, but I didn't bargain on how difficult it would be. The first few days back were very hard. I had found so much comfort in the simplicity of life on the Trail. My only job and purpose for 71-days was to cover miles (then get up and do the same thing over and over). I trained myself early on to forget about the life I was leaving behind and consciously ingrained the mantra of "This is who I am and this is what I do." I truly became Gobbler, the AT thru-runner/hiker. Turning off my AT-mentality once we returned home was difficult and not something I even wanted to do. Only days after finishing, I yearned to be back on the Trail. I was depressed and I wanted my simple purpose back -- even with the mosquitoes, mud, rocks, hunger, thirst, and pain. I missed our stinky tent, eating unhealthy amounts of Little Debbies, going to bed dirty, growing a beastly beard, bathing in creeks, and living out of our car.
I can honestly say that I am finally getting back to a sense of normalcy. It's been a slow process, but I've been thrusted back into the responsibilities of daily life -- ready or not, life as I knew it beckons. "Normal" is not what I am seeking though as I cannot and will not forget all those priceless lessons I learned on the Appalachian Trail this summer. I don't know that I will ever be able to completely impart what I did actually learn, but here is somewhat of a list:
- You can get by with much less than you think you need.
- You can ALWAYS do much more than you think you can.
- You can live on Little Debbies, pizza, and maltodextrin (I consumed 48 lbs. of the stuff) . . . but you had better be doing some serious miles. I did not lose ANY weight after running 2,181 miles -- I think I had the fueling pretty dialed-in!
- Hygiene is over-rated . . . but boy does a shower feel great when you've not had one for 4/5 days!
- Being alone in your own thoughts for 10-14 hours a day is good for your soul.
- I can't believe how much my wife loves me.
- I can't believe how much I love my wife.
- People are important. As much as I love being in nature, people and relationships are our most important natural resource.
- We need the Lord in our lives. I know where my strength comes from and it is not from me. I praise God for His protection and guidance on this adventure.
- A sense of purpose in life is important. I am glad to have a job and life (along with a bed, microwave, and air-conditioning) to come back to.
Many folks have asked if I would do it again. The answer even surprises me a bit. It is an emphatic, YES! . . . but I'm not sure if I'll ever have the opportunity. I would love to do the AT again, but even more I would love to do the PCT. It's good to have dreams, but for now I'm comfortable where I am.